Solitude seems to be a misjudged notion, at times a concept misinterpreted, ignored, shunned. I get in spaces which demand me of my own silence and revery (more frequently than others, it seems — though possibly a faulty assumption). Surrounded by too much “stuff” — people, events, noises, time — my mind becomes weary and I resort inwards like a doughy hermit to its shell. It doesn’t take one long to deem, Introvert, Introvert; the green and yellow bulbs flashing and flickering away.
I used to, in my younger years, think it was a characteristic of the “odd,” the loners, the strange ones but only in result of the satisfaction of others (it takes awhile to get to the point where you can give one big “Fuck it” to what others think, doesn’t it?). Even to this day, I get curious comments such as “Why are you traveling by yourself?” “A girl like you shouldn’t be sitting here alone.” Obviously they mean no harm or judgement, though I still wonder why this is.
I relish the time I do have alone — it is the only time I have to center myself, to feel the warmth of the universe in my own veins, to remember such things I couldn’t otherwise. And I am fortunate to have people around me who understand, who give me those silent parenthesis of infinity. So, now I am reminded to center myself when I can and solemnly breathe in.. out.. in.. out..
It’s just a story.. All of this.
Nobody is ever right or wrong..
Every being seems to be on a unique journey with its own rhythm, notes, lessons and truths. When something is written or said that is true for that person, it is hopeless to argue, defend, to attempt to apply and fit it into our own. It seems dangerous to idolize and believe one person.. (even Ghandi.. )
Take what you like and leave what you don’t, silently.
Whatever is true for you will resound without explanation, without warning and will stay safe in the soul always.
Opinions and judgments are the manifestation of your emotional reactions to memories and spiritual blocks. You want to remain open and not rigid in your attitudes. You must observe everything you perceive with objectivity and a lack of emotional bias. You can react to events, but you should not be overwhelmed by your reactions. You should maintain some sense of detachment even in your most emotionally affecting situations. Know why you cry; know why you have a sense of fear; know why you find yourself feeling angry. You are in control of yourself, not some person defined by outside events or manifestations of ideas that create road blocks in his or her awareness.
[ from Abundant Hope blog ]
Being lonely and feeling empty are only misalignments of our soul. If your soul is awakened, you can never be alone.
An excerpt from Jack Canfield’s superb book “The Success Principles:”
According to an ancient legend, there was a time when ordinary people had access to all the knowledge of the gods. Yet time and again, they ignored this wisdom. One day, the gods grew tired of so freely giving a gift the people didn’t use, so they decided to hide this precious wisdom where only the most committed of seekers would discover it. They believed that if people had to work to find this wisdom, they would use it more carefully.
One of the gods suggested that they bury it deep in the earth.
No, the others said–too many people could easily dig down and find it.
“Let’s put it in the deepest ocean,” suggested one of the gods, but that idea was also rejected. They knew that people would one day learn to dive and thus would find it too easily.
One of the gods suggested hiding it on the highest mountaintop but it was quickly agreed that people could climb mountains.
Finally, one of the wisest gods suggested, “Let’s hide it deep inside the people themselves. They’ll never think to look in there.” And so it came to be–and so it continues today.
.. All of our problems, drama and suffering start from one place: forgetting we and everything around us is impermanent.